On Monday I had an ‘Ugly’ run. You know the kind. They are diametrically opposed to the ‘Good’ runs. Good runs make us runners anticipate doing it all over again. They bring on runner’s highs and leave you with a feeling that anything is possible. ‘Ugly’ runs, on the other hand, do nothing of the sort.
My ‘Ugly’ run took place after work, as all my Monday runs do. I was tired. My legs were sore from a cross-training workout the day before. I was mentally drained and physically exhausted. I was cranky. But, of course, I still went out for my run.
When I got changed, it was raining and a little chilly from the wind. Accordingly, I threw on a lightweight jacket over my singlet and shorts. About five minutes into my run, the rain stopped, the wind came to a standstill and the sun began peeking out.
I got hot. Like, uncomfortably hot under my long jacket sleeves.
My thighs grumbled at me with their muscle soreness.
I got a pebble in my shoe that I stopped twice to try and fish out, only to push it down further away from my reach.
I felt dehydrated and thirsty.
The spot on my foot where my shoes had been pressing all day at work experienced sharp pains with each foot strike.
Drivers were distracted and cyclists and pedestrians were not in the mood to share the road.
It was most definitely an ‘Ugly’ run.
These are not the runs that leave me feeling exhilarated and powerful.
But I realized after I returned home that they do leave me with a deep sense of strength and resolve. These are, to be completely and totally clichéd, character building runs in the truest sense. These are the runs that I think of when a race is hard and I’m wondering if I have it in me. I can remember these runs and know that I do.
And, while one might think that a run like this would leave me in as poor or worse of a state than I was when I started, it doesn’t work that way. While I don’t finish feeling thrilled and excited about my running at that moment, I returned home on Monday with a clearer head, a diminished stress level, and a sense of pride in what I had accomplished.
So while I hope that I continue to have more ‘Good’ runs than not, these ‘Ugly’ run have their purpose, too, and it’s one that I’ve grown to appreciate.